Congrats to those who supported Trump and my sympathies and tender care to those who woke up in fear & despair today. Long live the USA 🇺🇸

Personally, I feel hopeful for our future but my hope feels independent of who is in the White House. I am also glad to be done with this phase of my content creation around politics to get back to the more usual programming on sex, sexual trauma, mathematical logic, mythology and esoteric practices.

The top inquiry alive in me presently is around pelvic floor health. I came across this video today–

… and love that someone is addressing strength training in the gym and how pelvic floor health is related to how strong your core can be.

In my own strength training regime that has really fallen into place over the past year with just a pair of adjustable dumbbells at home, I have noticed the deep connection each of my lifts has to this sense that I'm lifting from my pelvis. That I'm sourcing energy from my pelvis through the muscle chain that extends from my hands through my arms, down into my back and down my spine into the pelvis. I've felt this sense in Ecstatic Dance before where it feels like I'm dancing but I'm actually not using up any of my physical energy but the energy is being sourced from somewhere else below my root – some of the ISTA rituals I've partaken in talk about how energetically we are connected to the center of the Earth through the anus/root and to the center of the Sky through the crown.

I'm curious how other men relate to their pelvic floor and what kind of strengthening exercises they do for it – other than kegels, which feel quite reductive to me and somehow I've not (thus far) felt drawn to them. I'm also curious to hear from any women reading this who might have explored pelvic floor exercises with regards to pregnancy or otherwise and how that impacted their sex lives.

I've done some split training this year–front and side splits. And have noticed that in my own sexual sporting¹, varied physical forms of intercourse have emerged–supported by increased mobility because of the split training and driven by a curiosity of how the spine-cock connection shifts across the varied forms.

A lot more squatting and lunging during penetration has emerged. I have noticed that in these forms of intercourse, I find the spine-cock connection to be steadier and the Erotic flows have easier access up and down my spine, thereby preventing that hurtling feeling of lack of control of ejaculation that I've experienced in the past.

… and even cultivated and enjoyed so much during my days of trauma-induced porn addiction. That hidden thrill, that jerky yanking and feeling of letting go into a spasmodic ejaculation. That’s what I’m talking about.

This new form of intercourse has felt sporty in the sense that I find myself moving through a series of postures while maintaining penetrative connection, in an exploration of how my own connection to my cock and to my woman moves and evolves. In that sense, the Kamasutra has felt emergent and I'm quite struck by this exploration of physical forms and the connection of each of these forms to the shamanic realm (a realm of animalistic spirits) that one can observe in yoga, kalaripayattu–the Indian martial art, and sex. I must note here that I haven’t felt the specificity of the animalistic connection in sex yet other just the felt primality of some of these sexual postures, the way I have felt it in kalaripayattu–that develops well defined animal postures as a part of the preparatory training and, in my view, inspired Animal Flow.

After such a session of sport which involves squatting and lunging forms of penetration, I have sometimes noticed how charged my entire back feels. There's an element here also of thrusting from the open hips. For a lot of my life, I couldn't feel my hips because my hips held repressed memories of sodomy and associated rage. When I'm penetrating from a strong spine-cock connection, the cock feels like it is an extension of my spine as contrasted with feeling the arousal concentrated in my cock and thereby feeling reduced to a cock.

Anyways that's the inquiry that's alive for now. And this post is a reminder that we can still continue developing our individual passions and inquiries while the world of politics goes on around us, as scary as the shifts may feel sometimes.

If you are a man reading this and would love to work with me on matters of overcoming porn addiction and becoming a better lover, please reach out for a free exploratory call. If you are a peer in these explorations, I'd love to hear your thoughts below! If you have clarifying questions, I'd love to receive those below too!