At some point in my healing journey, the world of conscious sexuality opened itself up to me, and I dove deep into Neo-Tantra and conscious kink. I was particularly drawn to Shibari, the Japanese art of rope bondage, because I noticed it invited in me the kind of pause I needed to embody scenarios of physical intimacy.

Because of my prior pornographic conditioning, I had a go-go-go mentality when it came to making love. The more I practiced Shibari, the more it tapped into the slow, steady engineer inside me, and it also awakened the artist: the art both of the beautiful feminine body before me and of the gorgeous rope ties holding her body in place, while I got to admire her, lean back, and choose intentionally in what manner I wanted to arouse her.

In this journey, I made many mistakes, and I learned a lot from them. It was also some of the most beautiful art that came out of me, which was up on an Instagram page called the Surrender Devotion Project until I took it down in my Christian era. These pictures give you a glimpse of the art that came through me.

These photographs have been put up consensually. If you are one of the women pictured here and would like your photo taken down, please write to me.